Calling the hospital the next day, really did put me at ease, confirming that Gabriella had in fact been admitted, the night before. I was so relieved however knowing that she was safe and would be monitored more closely regarding, her depression. They would not give me any details concerning Gabriella’s condition over the phone though, only that she had been admitted and her floor.
This hospital was a very scarey place, my stomach was in knots, as I took the elevator to the fourth floor, rang the buzzard and waited to be let inside. Gabriella was sitting in the lounge area and when she seen me she started to cry. Oh! How it tore at my heart.
The doctor that was on the floor asked, if I would join him and the head nurse, in one of the rooms, as they talked to Gabriella. So we were taken into one of the intervue rooms where the nurse took notes, while the doctor asked questions, in regards to Gabriella’s obvious breakdown.
Gabriella was very incoherent, she was crying uncontrollably and holding my hand very tightly, so I had to answer the doctor’s questions, as best I could. The intervue lasted about forty-five minutes and I really wasn’t impressed with this doctor, but nonetheless had to give him, the benefit of the doubt.
This is where I believe Gabriella’s mental problems were compounded, with being misdiagnosed, to the constant changing of her medications, to the start of her many electric shock treatments. The very system that was set up to help patience like Gabriella in the long term drastically changes their lifes and not for the better.
You can’t imagine how I felt when I seen Gabriella , come back to the ward after a shock treatment session, where I was waiting. She was like a walking zombie with no expres – sion just a blank stare, it was horrible. At one point she went into the washroom and when she didn’t come out, I went in to find her sitting on the floor hands around her neck, trying to choke herself.
This was a very devistating period for both Gabriella and myself, for this really tested how strong our love is for each other. I had been told to walk away, that she is too messed up, but that was never an option. You see I love Gabriella, with all my heart and allthough we weren’t married as of yet, she was and is the only girl, in this world for me.
Thank-you,
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